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essentially, i'm still a 12 year old girl obsessed with boys, tragedy, and idealism. i like telling my secrets to strangers. http://mzchief.tumblr.com/ask

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Another magical evening

Well, he might get deported so I might as well go for it.

(Just kidding. He’s having trouble renewing his visa and might get kicked out of the country for awhile while he gets it together to come back.)

The saga in my mind continues…

He’s been texting. We’ve been texting. If you have time it’d be delightful to see you… I sent you messages, but you never responded… I like you a lot and you’ve always been supportive even when I was not good…

It’s just going to be more of the same shit. And I know it.

We have plans tonight. I’m back and forth about whether or not I’m going to bail.

“I think it’s very healthy to spend time alone. You need to know how to be alone and not be defined by another person.”

Oscar Wilde

(via matsvri)

i don’t want it to end

i’ve been trying my best to not respond. i sent him an acknowledgement that i had received his messages and today i sent him the name of an immigration lawyer because he sent me a message wanting to know when i was back and how annoying his Visa situation has been. i told him he i’d got back last saturday.

this is all in my head. he has “5 billion questions” and wants to know what i’ve been doing and how my month has been and when i’m free.  it’s all so benign, but to me he’s just a torturously delicious love land mine.

i can’t. and i won’t. and i don’t stop.

yesterday morning, i dreamt that i was waking up and i was wrapped up next to him and i was surprised but so happy that he was in my bed with the light streaming in through the windows. i could feel my cheek against his skin and saw the moles and freckles on his chest and belly.

i’m so glad there’s like 1 person i know in real life that knows about my tumblr account. but as i said, deep down, i’m just a 12 year old girl.

Clouds looking dope. #iusedafilterbutitsprettynicewithout

Clouds looking dope. #iusedafilterbutitsprettynicewithout

“When you have only two pennies left in the world, buy a loaf of bread with one, and a lily with the other.”

– Chinese Proverb (via tranceend)

ckck:

New York’s legendary Roseland Ballroom closed for good yesterday, and will apparently be demolished to make way for yet more luxury apartments.
Pictured: The old Roseland Ballroom circa 1940, located at Broadway & 51st Street. They moved to their current location, a block away, in 1956.
Photograph by Weegee.

i hated this venue, but of course i’ve had a ton of memories here.

ckck:

New York’s legendary Roseland Ballroom closed for good yesterday, and will apparently be demolished to make way for yet more luxury apartments.

Pictured: The old Roseland Ballroom circa 1940, located at Broadway & 51st Street. They moved to their current location, a block away, in 1956.

Photograph by Weegee.

i hated this venue, but of course i’ve had a ton of memories here.