cancelled check - beck
i’m sick of not being in love.
but i don’t know how to not get caught up in the moment. to just have fun. to just be happy. right then.
and then in the morning, it’s nice, it’s friendly. it’s comfortable. it’s not love.
and then i bum out, wondering if i’ll ever be deliriously, happily in love again. i wonder if i’m even capable of that fervor for another human any more.
maybe seven months of not love is too long. even if the rest of it is pretty great. no strings, no attachments. an amiable rapport.
total freedom.
i am the unbearable lightness of being.
p.s. i can’t believe this is the only video i can find of this song. you know, without having looked for more than 2 minutes.
